Oh Man! Thursday, January 25, 2007

Oh man!

You know something, I was lying on my bed last night(or morning) and it suddenly struck me that I am not going to be left here for very long. So I checked with my trusty cell phone calendar and I counted the number of days left.


11.


If you take away today because it is already night, it's only 10 days! Seriously I don't know what to feel. Sad, angry, happy, blank or all!

Yeah I think i feel all of it.

I looooove to study there BUT! I hate living there cos all the shops close at around 5-6(OUCH!). It hurts. It's the total opposite here! Shops are open all around the clock, it's so fun. I love to live here but I absolutely hate studying/working here. I wish I had the best of both worlds.


Oh man I'm starting school on the 9th of February and this year would be the first year for me to start school without my mom. Oh damn. My mom feels kinda bad that she isn't able to be there for me cos of the business, and she gets really really sad when I go like: "Aww mom why can't you go on the 4th of February. :("

And she'll go like:
"Sigh.. Sorry sorry I'm so sorry luhh. SIGH I feel so bad" with the pouty look. And her face immediately changes to this :( when talking about this subject.

So I go to her, and I tell her it's okay and everything and I ask her why she is so upset. She says she just wants to be there with me to see me start school.

What an awesome mom. I love her!

I pray so much that I will make good and friendly friends and that the people in Massey High School will be really nice and warm and friendly and welcoming. Well, I don't expect EVERYONE to be nice but almost all of them. Oh and I hope I would get some really good arguing skills so that if some bitch in school becomes unreasonable and starts to pick a fight with a stupid reason, I hope the words will just come like in a snap of the finger. Cool, I've never had that.

Perhaps if some football big shot guy doesn't like Asians I'd outtalk him and whoop his ass he wishes he was Asian.

Probably this really old, powdery school discipline mistress wearing floral dresses to cover her spider-web vein legs and red heels with the retro like cat eye glasses(you know those that are pointy at the end) and a long & loose chain. Maybe she'll start to get unreasonable, I can talk back at her and make her not want to ask me anymore questions. Hahaha maybe becoming really popular with the people and being the school idol. Or how people make way for me when I walk down the hallway. Haha it's so television-ish.

Hmm, nah. The only thing I'm worried about is making hardcore havoc friends who deal with drugs and smoke and drink and curse and lead an unhealthy lifestyle. The main thing is I'm scared they will psycho me into drugs or sabotage me by planting pills in my bag. I'm really scared of that but I told my mom I'd tell her if anyone offered me drugs.

I just wanna make good friends, really. I wanna go there and start a new lifestyle, free from my awful past. I wanna try topping either my class or level or school. Possibilities are really high if there were lesser Asians there. Heh heh.


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