GUARDIAN ANGEL Friday, June 23, 2006

after all these years, i finally realised i have a guardian angel. i must have been a fool to not know it.

well this guardian angel of mine has been with me, cared for me, showered me with love, my whole life. i can very much feel it, tho sometimes i'm just confused with her expectations of me. she's there's with me, seen me through life, got hurt by me. she's human btw.

i sat down thinking, what i do will result in her suffering. sometimes when i do things for her sake, i get hurt too. it seems like no one bothers bout me anymore! if i don't do it, she gets hurt AND THEN i'm blamed.

i hate being stuck-in-between. i hate it. hello this is life.
as i thought, i don't want my guardian angel to be hurt by me, and also get her life span shortened. i don't want that to happen. i'm thinking of that dreadful day when she passes on, hoping hard it won't come soon, or even better, don't come. i more or less treasure her when i think of this. it sucks.

i never wanted you to be hurt. i just can't imagine life without you. you're the peacemaker, the encourager, the supporter, the caring one, the love-showerer, the one who's there for me(most of the time),the problem solver I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO EVER REPAY YOU.


thank you my guardian angel for all you've done. thank you, mommy.



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